Mohydein, 30, came to Israel from Darfur in 2006.
It was 8:00 in the morningwhen I hear the sugar cane truck outside.
I knew it was there to help us. The Janjaweed attacking nearby villages.The truck wasour way out.
The day before the driverHe said he was going to come for us and take us to the city
It was safer.
We all came towards the truck.
About 20-30 adults that were left in the village.The children had already left. The women got on the truckand the men were by the truck waiting for everyone.
We were hanging out, talking.I was looking forward to getting to the city. Then the militants (the Janjaweed) came.
I was scared, but I thoughtthey are just passing through.But others sensed real danger, saying,"No, they are not the normal people that we know."
I was trying to hide, and not be noticed.
I remember my Uncle asked, "What's going on?"And the militants said, "Don't worry, we have some questions". They asked if our leader or his assistants were in the village,but we had told them the truth, that they left for the city. They said that we were lying.
They said lie on our stomachs. I lay down and heard them
each individual separately.
Someone raised his head off the ground and was shot. I thoughtmy time to die was coming soon.But then the militants took us in the sugar cane truckand took us to next village to question the villagers there.
There were just four men left in that village and theyhung one upside down from a tree where he died.
suddenlythey released us and we went on the truck again to drive to the city.
After they released us andwe started to drivesome of the militants put their hands up and said to stop again.
We did. We were terrified.But they were only jokingand their commander waved us through.
The sugar cane driver
on the gas again and we drove to Khartoum.
Ruphael, 28, came to Israel in 2008 from Eritrea.
I want to explain the last momentthe day I left my home country.It was 10:00 I met my friend who was willing to leave with me.Ah, we were confidant to each other, that there wouldn't be any leakage of uh...information. Ah, we went to a mall to get more privacy to discuss about the things that we can do, that can happen to us when we get to the border.
Ahhh... we stayed there until 3 having cigarette and drink coffee. Umm... Of course we were afraid of um... the police. Maybe the police suspect us from any intelligence from government.
Umm, by three, by three pm we get out of the mall and walk to our home, looking like as usual. WithoutTo lookNot to look
To look as usualHiding our emotionsBut uh...The weather was hot.I could feel it in my skin.Ummm...ClearClear clouds in the—No clouds in the sky. It was hot day. I came to homefeltI watchedI came home
I met with my mom and step sister
I was feeling heavy inside because I know that
I’m going to leave them at the moment but
they didn’t, they didn’t know
Even though theywere speaking to meI was in my own world.My mom asking me if Iwant eatMy step sister asking to have coffeeand...I waited till that five appointment dateno— time to leave the homeat 5 pm.(Pause.)I saw for the last momentmy father coming200 meters away fromhomewalking to get home.and Ijust left home when he wasUmm... Coming.I couldn’t
even my momwhen she was near to meGood-byeafraid she can screw up the thingsand not agree with me and what I’m going to doBut ahhh...I say good-bye with in insidewithin my selfand wishing to see them back one day.
Million, 40, came to Israel from Eritrea in 2008.
I crossed the border from Eritrea toSudan.I feltfrustrated because maybe the soldiers could catch me. I think about my family.
Could I endure longing?especially my mom.When we got over borderI ate and I drink water with my friends. We ate hummus (laugh) and drink water.
I bathe in a lakeI remember the cold water and the birdsI think about my friends I can’t see them anymoreMy t-shirt and clothes were sweatyso I wash my clothesI remember my girlfriendHow could I meet her again
That night I went to sleep with my arms outstretched.
I feel joyabout my freedomabout my free
my life and futureThere was a sound of songin my dream.
Kimo, 26, from Darfur, came to Israel in 2009.
I left Darfur when he was 16
I was at the market hanging out with my friends
And we were hearing about the surrounding villages that they’re packing and leaving.I didn’t care that much
I was just kept hanging out with my friends
I came back home from the marketback homefelt tired from walking around the market all day and found only my mother at home cookingI felt there was somethinggoing on she doesn’t want to tell me about itI was wondering, asking my mother where is everyone. I felt confused becauseusuallysomeone is aroundUmm... she saideveryone is out
But I felt weird becauseit was Saturdayand there was no schooland my brother should be home.
I went to get water at the well.My weird feeling almost disappeared in the three minute walk but then I still felt strange because there wereweren’t many people outside hanging out.And I remember feeling hot and that peoplelooked sad.
David, 28, from Darfur. In Israel since January, 2011.
When my brother come home from work
I thought I wouldI would tell him I was going to Tamazee.I left my village when it attack by Janjaweed and go
went to my brother
I lived with him.
I was feeling depressed being in the place where he lived.We sit down together and I see he’ssmilingand happyand he was glad and I was worried ifhehe refuse to give mesome cashso I told him about my plan to go to Tamazinefor a couple for a couple of weeksand I knew if Itold him exactly what I’m going to dohe would not allow meto goI feel nervousummmm I hearhim speaking quietlyHe ask me many questions
aboutwhat I’m going to doand I feel afraid toI feel fear of not succeeding with my plan and Itell himI will be back when schoolsopensand I thought if he agrees totally whenif he agrees totally then I canescape form there
YeahAnd he said yes and I feel great
Adil, 27 Years old, from Darfur. Came to Israel in 2010, and hasbeen in Holot since February, 2014.
I was 17 years oldand I was in refugee campI went back homeI was happy that I was going to meet members of my family!I see my family and I told my parent that I wanted to speak to them!I was afraid that maybe my parent won’t agree with me to continue my study. Maybe they will support or encourage me to join the army.To join the army group to fight against the government (Janjaweed)And I told themI wanted tostudy medicine in Khartoum
I feel my hands was shakingAnd I had long— we had long discussion with my familyHow can I make it while they are still in Darfur
At last my parents agreed with meand I feel teared upwhen my parents agreed with meI had a dinner with my familyand uhhh...I had a feeling that my dreams are going to come true and I can study
or continue my studyI feel I was saying good-bye to my family for the last time.Achmed, 26 years old, from Darfur. Came to Israel in 2008.
I was playing a gameswhen I was in my villageI was playing a games inside my housewith my friendsIt’s called Tikrayaand it was daylight it wasday outside.I felt bad because I loose the gameAnd then we hear noise and I look outsideand the Janjawed with guns and horses came to my village. So I felt nervous.and I was thinking about my familybecause my family there was no one at home
People told us that Janjaweeds are coming
So I was thinkingto find a place like outside the placean abandoned areaWe arewe ran outside and I was scared and my hear start! beating quickly.I saw my sisterand brotherand ranI ran to themI had feeling that they could rescue meor help me to escape.